Saturday, August 30, 2008

my princesses

slept at nana's yday with the girlies.the best way to unwind and let my hair down after a tiring week of kawad,camping,assignments and classes.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

food i've gotta eat before puasa starts*drools*:-

1)waffle world
2)burger king-double mushroom swiss
3)secret recipe's cheezy choc
4)hot dog sec 6
5)dawood's naan cheese
6)swensens for ice-cream
7)dim sum at eden
8)hot choc with whipped cream(i still dunno where is the best place for hot choc)
9)macd's strawberry shake

Thursday, August 21, 2008

overall diary reading

my meltdown went a tad too far.teeheehee.anyway,im not gonna delete that post becoz it reminds me of my stupidity and how bratty and selfish i can be.

the fling with mr then right now has ended.but its okie.everything's hunky dory.i now know how much i should like someone and the do's and don't with fling mates and thus because i used and apply my simple love theories with mr.then,im doing a-okay now:)

i checked my diary.its funny in a way.from 2006 to late 2007.all i talked about ws him.from one fight to anthr.and same goes for i listed down all the things i hated about him,how bad he treated me.everythingg bad lah.

then came early 2008 which i consider the post break-up stage.i still talked about him.but not in the same way.i still had feelings for him.but i no longer would cry when writing about them.its more of letting go of the past kinda phase.

next was the im gonna die alone phase.i was shit scared.everyone around me ws hooking up.i ws queasy and jealous being around love-birds.i ws scared because i dint have scandals,flings,eye-candies,pemangkin class. watever u call it.i didnt have it.and hence seeing how everyone is going out with someone.i ws in the stage where i truly believed i would end up alone.partly due to the fact that some of my attractive aunties and mum's frens are still unmarried.and they are soo pretty.(successful,long-haired,slim looking women)

and then there's the dating phase.the come and goes.the not soo serious relationships.this is where i am now.but i think sooner or later i'll wind up back to the depressing die-alone stage.i dunno whyy.

but dnt get me wrong, im not a love struck giddy teen who only talks about love and boys.there are other stuff as well.deaths,friendships,family problems,my own insecurities.normal everyday stuff u write in ur diary.that's me.normal average me:)

Saturday, August 16, 2008

i hate it when ppl leaves:'

i went to farhana yem's kenduri yday(ana, my so-called twin sister.hehe)anyway,i met my old buddies.cik farah hassan,nadia ayam,mussy and of course farhana yem..and today is acap's farewell party pulak.last week was nael's.everyone's leavinnnnnng.alaaaaa:'

i rmbr aftr high school thinking how i will hate that day when evryone leaves and now that dreadful day has come.everyone is leavinnng stuck in this ho-hub town.foreverrrr gonna be that character on tv where everyone leaves,get rich,come back home and see me working in a diner or gas station.i can actually imagine myself.a mop on one hand with a baby wrapped on anthr crying.oh shit.

Sunday, August 10, 2008


have u ever wished u could turn back time so things would be back the way they were.but because of the quarrels,name-calling and bitter fights, you just know that it is never gonna happen.that even though u try ur best to cover-up with ur smiles and fake laughs, you would never look at that person the same way.

this may sound cliche.but you should never take anyone for granted esp. those that matter most to u coz once u lose them, u lose u:(

Saturday, August 9, 2008

i have weight issues and others are slowly taking notice.fuck.its soo depressing.when im happy,i eat, when i eat, i gain weight,when i gain weight,i get the circle continues.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

i feel like unleashing my inner bitch