Don't knock me on my face

Not feeling too peachy lately. The tummy often does some serious somersaults and head throbs at loud noises whilst the eyes blink at the sight of neon ugly colours.

I am currently not in the best of shape nor mood. With the physique not adjusting well to the food and surrounding, the time of the month crashing, the departure of a good friend, the cold-shoulder treatment from someone from the past, the bickering/fighting from the sister. Yes, things are just swell for me..

I know I tend to pout and nag at the tiniest flaw and fault. I can be tiresome to hear at a point where one does gets truly annoyed and wants to punch my face. Thus, to save myself from having a black eye from fellow mates and family members, I shall result my nagging attribute by writing my soul out here in my blog. To those who are fed-up with my whiny persona, you can simply click the (x) button located at the far right of this page :)

hello december

hello world.i have been neglecting writing for awhile.had crazy fun vacationing and exploring other parts of the world.dnt fret, i am back and will kick this blog with a vengeance.

im a bit rusty, and my spoken and written English language has gone terribly loony.(which i am not proud of). i reckon baby Tawfiq will soon have a better grasp of English than i do with this lazy rate i'm going. he now says words like 'sour' and 'technology'. (mind you, he's only 3)

he has become such a mischievious little goof who enjoys performing magic shows and being on my nerves. i start off my morning by him knocking on my door whislt screaming at the top off his lungs 'RISsEeeee and ShIiIiINeee Kak chikkk'.(not cute when ur sleeping)


okay that is it for now.will try to update more about my goings soon.oh and dnt u just hate those teenage kampung 'wannabes'. they think they're so coo' with their skimpy outfits and rempit boyfies.makes me wanna pull a Calista Flockhart

Friday the 13th

Exams over.hu-rahhh! Celebrated freedom by having lunch at Ausmat with fellow mates and snoozed under the covers like a baby the whole evening. Later that night, went to Shed Restaurant with the family to celebrate Aunty Gina’s birthday. Food was edible but too oily for my liking. Besides, there was this annoying fat cat starring at me and my food. I was in fear thus did not enjoy dinner.(I have a fear for cats since little). Nonetheless, the adults liked it and could not stop praising the food and the relaxing ambiance the place has to offer.

Quickly rushed home to watch Nur Kasih on TV and hates Nur’s sister, Sarah more and more now. Gosh, she’s like a bug u just wish u could squash on. The way she moves, the way she talks, the way she portrays herself infuriates me.

Then there’s Aliya. Gosh, grow up dude. She needs to stop being a spoiled anak datuk and start acting like a wife. I Feel like giving her a vigorous shake.

That is all for now. Happy hols people :)

current random thoughts.

tmrw is doom's day and yes, im still online thus makes me dead meat.what have i been doing this past 3 weeks?!why am i still online and blubbering here in written thoughts?!!

gosh,i need a hardcore hakdush.


i just cant wait for jkt.i need my retail therapy known as shopping.

going nuts over doc martens lately but the price is sky high.might as well get a job here to save up some moolah as to get my hands on those beauty.hubba hubba.

oh and i need new pants as well.preferably light blue slashed skinnies. (though i'm aware that my meaty legs aren't skinny pants size,i shall be optimistic and pray hard that my dreams and prayers of shedding some extra kilos will once and for all, be true.)fyi, i used to be really skinny back when i was in std 6.oh good old days...then hormones & food destroyed everything..damn you!

okay.enough blubbering.gotta head the books.tarra tarra now.

le love

photos taken throughout the years.

Sayangs, I love all of you u to bits. Hos over Bros, anytime!








"See you and me have a better time than most can dream of, better than the best, so we can pull on through, whatever tears at us, whatever holds us down, and if nothing can be done, we'll make the best of what's around."
-Dave Matthews Band

music in my head

Meet Me Halfway-The Black Eyed Peas

i know this song is overrated but i just can't help myself. i lovee lovee this track. The Black Eyed Peas has done it again.

Lyrics Meet Me Halfway

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

Coo,I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
every single day yes, i'm really missin' missin' you
and all those things we use to use to use to do
hey girl, wuz up, it use to be just me and you
i spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
every single day, yes i'm really missin missin you
and all those things we use to use to use to do
hey girl wuz up, wuz up, wuz up, wuz up

meet me halfway, right at the borderline
that's where i'm gonna wait, for you
i'll be lookin out, night n'day
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

girl,i travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
across the universe i go to other galaxies
just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
i navigate myself myself to take me where you be
cause girl i want, i, i, i want you right now
i travel uptown (town) i travel downtown
i wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
i love you always..way

can you meet me half way (I'll meet you halfway)
right at the borderline
that's where i'm gonna wait, for you
i'll be lookin out, night n'day
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
i can't go any further then this
i want you so bad it's my only wish
i can't go any further then this
i want you so bad it's my only wish

let's walk the bridge, to the other side
just you and I (just you and I)
i will fly, i'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
i will try, until i die, for you and i, for you and i, for for you and i,
for for you and i, for for you and i, for you and i

can you meet me half way (yup yup)
can you meet me half way (yup yup)
can you meet me half way (yup yup)
can you meet me half way (yup yup)
meet me half way, right at the borderline
that's where i'm gonna wait, for you
i'll be lookin out, night n'day
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
i can't go any further then this
i want you so bad it's my only wish
i can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

i am tired of excuses

I’ve been quite uneasy lately for reasons I don’t know why. Like I’ve been knocked down or rolled over by a big truck. I don’t know how to explicitly describe the feeling. I am perturbed. Therefore I shun myself from the likes of others. Not because I am socially retarded but because I’m battling with my inner self. This causes me to react and behave in odd ways.i-e-the cold shoulders.